Monday, October 13, 2025
Blast from the Past
Wednesday, October 8, 2025
Restlessness
Home is quiet today reading all done
chicken in crockpot
lunch with friend in an hour
there is restlessness
I know pickleball mahjong lunches will get old
what am I (still) passionate about?
No desire to be docent
volunteer at gardens (done that disliked it)
hospital volunteer (done that too)
babysit (mixed bag)
stock food pantry
march as Keith does
I sense church is still where I am led
or is it just my comfort zone?
Keith asks are you sorry you retired
my answer is no
not even ready to volunteer as short-term interim.
Actually church isn't comfort zone anymore
have trouble remembering names
my singing voice declining
difficulty seeing words in dim sanctuary
theological lectures
not even comfortable in Sunday school.
Months ago I told other ordained Cheryl at Massey’s
I want to be for a pastor
what she has been for me: friend
someone to talk things through
someone to fill in when I was sick or gone
I knew she could do anything in church and do it well.
I can see I will not be these things where I am
but
I also need want crave well-played hymns music
it’s how I worship
oh the music at Pittsboro is sublime.
Listen to this craziness
I could worship sing at 9 a.m. main service
visit around at 11 a.m. churches
especially struggling little ones
disrespected at charge conferences
God is still here!
might be interesting.
Or not.
Dear Jesus would you like to weigh in?
Monday, October 6, 2025
Charge Conference
I attended charge conference last night
even though my feet dragged
thought I was done with these things
but
I'm a member of this one
curious about the church
there is new DS to meet
young Korean shook my hand
is this him? this fellow looks too young
I gave my name but he did not give his
I asked him you are...? yes the DS
I can’t believe we’ve never met (actually I can)
it’s nice to meet you so that much is done.
No opportunity to sneak out
I stayed the duration
worship DS sermon
horrible discernment at church tables
never seen this done
felt sorry for small churches
embarrassed shamed
by having to answer questions.
Two churches doing well
growing excited about everything
Pittsboro and The Local Church
(relatively) new church merged with Evergreen
others not so much.
I feel impotently angry for little churches
who cannot understand
why outsiders do not find them attractive
last year’s charge profile allowed churches
to name villains:
Covid shrinking population
disaffiliations
terrible pastoral leadership
hard to blame shrinking population
in this corner of the state.
Here’s what I know
only one of declining churches
present last night
has functioning web site
where someone might discover
what time the church worships
that is the tip of the iceberg I’m sure
I don’t know the answer
nor why my heart hurts for them.
As we’re leaving
here came a woman from Evergreen
who remembered me
(I was there briefly with Aldersgate)
we’re doing so well she told me
I’m happy for you! happy also
it appears Local Church and you all
get to keep your (valuable) property I said
after lunching last year
with Evergreen’s former interim pastor
who told she didn’t think it would happen
make it happen I urged her
it was good to see something
that might have ended badly
end very well
praise God.