Monday, November 3, 2025

Not Me This Time

 

Flame azalea - a burning bush?

Sunday the choir sang Praise to the Lord the Almighty

raised the roof!

worship ran long because pastor is on paternity leave

div student free to pontificate

guest elder presided at communion

Sunday school hour only had 35 minutes

I wandered around

because the class I’ve been attending

didn’t meet

teacher is elderly sick usually gone

although she wants desperately to be there.

 

First couple Sundays I attended

someone else led the class

then both subs asked for volunteer to lead

the next Sunday

well okay I’ll do it I said

yay thank you they replied

then the teacher was back for a week

I liked her a lot

week later she was ill could I fill in again

continue lesson of Mary and Martha

yes but the problem is

you’re not giving me but a day’s notice

that’s all we’re getting the other two subs said

she doesn’t call in sick until Friday

this has been going on for months.

 

When I got the email last Friday I said no

I just got the Covid shot feel lousy

so there was no class.

 

Teacher recovering at daughter's home

sent me email telling me next topic would be

Learning the Will of God

that’s a hard subject I responded

we could spend lifetime learning God's will

just by following teachings of Jesus

(not what she meant as I knew)

I said it might be better to alternate subs

with perhaps parables of Jesus

we’d pick our favs prepare in advance

be ready if we need to fill in

(I'm not going to teach this class as I've said)

 

She responded

no it will be Learning the Will of God

(perhaps we can incorporate parables)

it’s what the class wants she said

a group I’m told won’t even agree

to read a bible study book

ah shades of Tacoma I thought

meaning and purpose

(not to mention control) derived

from something that is being taken away

not by me this time

I wished her blessings

it's not a topic I feel comfortable teaching

told other unhappy subs

sometimes things need to die

before new life can emerge

it’s the Christian story

I didn’t say.

Sunday, October 26, 2025

Happy Rail Bike Excursion


Katherine and I went on a rail bike excursion last weekend
here we are smiling
it was a gorgeous day
chilly clear perfect
electric motors meant we only pedaled
when we wanted
our speed between 7 and 25 mph
on an old old railway line
two hours of bliss
hour out and hour back
with picnic in between.

This was in Anderson, NC
near Murphy
a four-hour drive on mountain roads
autumn leaves bright and beautiful
listening to Kat's favorite
Taylor Swift
her new album.

It was just overnight
breakfast at some bougie place
Katherine found on Tik Tok
food and coffee were great
the whole day perfect.

Thank you God
for this daughter.









Monday, October 13, 2025

Blast from the Past

 Stephanie, me, Stephan at Morehead UMC

I haven't seen Stephen and Stephanie 
since I supervised Stephen 
in a field education placement
in Rougemont in 2009.

It was a good summer
I was still fairly new pastor
there were two good students
which made it fun for everyone.

Now look at us
going gray
I'm retired
he's pastor of wonderful busy church
Stephanie obviously great help to him (still) 
they have two boys the eldest 14
makes me feel old.

On Sunday I drove to Greensboro
to see him in the pulpit at Morehead UMC
It was a really good sermon and delivery
text was Ephesians
Stephen exegeted the scripture
gave personal examples
preaching I find so engaging.

It was so worth the drive
even an hour even in the rain
so blessed to see such
goodness knowledge call carried forward.

Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Restlessness

 

Where does the path lead? Does it matter?

Home is quiet today reading all done

chicken in crockpot

lunch with friend in an hour

there is restlessness

I know pickleball mahjong lunches will get old

what am I (still) passionate about?

No desire to be docent

volunteer at gardens (done that disliked it)

hospital volunteer (done that too)

babysit (mixed bag)

stock food pantry

march as Keith does

I sense church is still where I am led

or is it just my comfort zone?

Keith asks are you sorry you retired

my answer is no

 not even ready to volunteer as short-term interim.

Actually church isn't comfort zone anymore

have trouble remembering names

my singing voice declining

difficulty seeing words in dim sanctuary

theological lectures

not even comfortable in Sunday school.

Months ago I told other ordained Cheryl at Massey’s

I want to be for a pastor

what she has been for me: friend

someone to talk things through

someone to fill in when I was sick or gone

I knew she could do anything in church and do it well.

I can see I will not be these things where I am

but

I also need want crave well-played hymns music

it’s how I worship

oh the music at Pittsboro is sublime.

Listen to this craziness

I could worship sing at 9 a.m. main service

visit around at 11 a.m. churches

especially struggling little ones

disrespected at charge conferences

God is still here!

might be interesting. 

Or not.

Dear Jesus would you like to weigh in?

Monday, October 6, 2025

Charge Conference

 

Last night's almost-Super Moon

I attended charge conference last night

even though my feet dragged

thought I was done with these things

but

I'm a member of this one

curious about the church

there is new DS to meet

young Korean shook my hand

is this him? this fellow looks too young

I gave my name but he did not give his

I asked him you are...? yes the DS

I can’t believe we’ve never met (actually I can)

it’s nice to meet you so that much is done.

No opportunity to sneak out

I stayed the duration

worship DS sermon

horrible discernment at church tables

never seen this done

felt sorry for small churches

embarrassed shamed

by having to answer questions.

Two churches doing well

growing excited about everything

Pittsboro and The Local Church

(relatively) new church merged with Evergreen

others not so much.

I feel impotently angry for little churches

who cannot understand

why outsiders do not find them attractive

last year’s charge profile allowed churches

to name villains:

Covid shrinking population 

disaffiliations

terrible pastoral leadership

hard to blame shrinking population

in this corner of the state.

 

Here’s what I know

only one of declining churches

present last night

has functioning web site

where someone might discover

what time the church worships

that is the tip of the iceberg I’m sure

I don’t know the answer

nor why my heart hurts for them.

As we’re leaving

here came a woman from Evergreen

who remembered me

(I was there briefly with Aldersgate)

we’re doing so well she told me

I’m happy for you! happy also

it appears Local Church and you all

get to keep your (valuable) property I said

after lunching last year

with Evergreen’s former interim pastor

who told she didn’t think it would happen

make it happen I urged her

it was good to see something

that might have ended badly

end very well

praise God.